Alexandra's Randomness

                                So, in today's post we are going to explore a weird fear of mine, which is or was going to school. Growing up, I was always pressured by my parents to study and be the best at everything. Being young and vulnerable, I would listen to their demands of me studying. I wasn't the best, which made my parents a little frustrated, which had a negative impact on myself. I would hate going to school. If it wasn't for that handful of friends, I would have been a lonely kid. Later in life, I made the choice of switching schools and choosing another profile with other things to study. Things have gotten a lot better. But still, the pressure was there, both encouraged by my parents and teachers. I would come home and study for the next day's subjects, no mather which one. Even in Highschool I had subjects I disliked, even hated. But I kept studying just to please my parents and teachers....

                             I've started getting out of the comfort zone recently. And I had some help. I'm the shy type, so I needed that boost. There are people out there who are ment to be the in the front and there are people who are ment to be in the back. But it's nice to just switch from time to time. I began  getting out of my comfort zone thanks to the projects I've been involved because they made me interact with people, and that helped me gain some hope in today's human kind. I was terrified because of past experience and you might be too, but not all people are mean. I had to learn this lesson by going out with my class mates who turned out to be so different when they were not in the four walls of school. This is part of human psychology. We have more than one face. We have three faces: one we show when we're at work, one we show when we're with friends and family and one we show when we're ...

       So I was wondering for a while why it is a lot easier to lie as you get older.And I'm not thinking 20-30, I'm thinking 5-10, maybe earlier or later. So I thought of the closest kid I know who lies and why.Me. Now you're going to think, ''Alexandra you're 18'', but I didn't start lying recently, but way earlier. When I was about 12-13, I started lying about my grades because, to my family, that seamed like the most important thing in the world, adding to that, I was compared to the smather kids like "Why can they have straight 10 and you can't.Well, for a thing I hated a lot of subjects and I just couldn't shove all that crap in my head, so I was pleased I passed.But I didn't pass with 5, I passed with 7, maybe 8, but the fact that it wasn't a 10 was a huge crime for my parents.You can't even imagine how they reacted to my entering Highschool exams.Again, they weren't bad but not 10. Back to the subject.Later in...

                                                 So...Exam season is around the corner...More precisely on Monday...Yay... To tell you the truth, I'm freaking out and I'm so worried that something might come up and I'm screwed for life. I hate the fact that I wasn't educated to cope with a bad situation like that(I mean screwing up).All I know is to blame myself if I screw up.Which is not a good mentality.It's a very negative and distructive mentality to me.How can you tell your child if he fails something(no mather how important) they are that it's their fault.#parentinggoals But I don't blame the parents, but a few parenting books might help.Which is why I thought a nonparent could give  100 better advice on educating a child rather than a parent.I feel a better educater in parenting than my own parents.Like hello!? Ok, so I've already started to go into...

                                            When I was a young girl, I dreamed of becoming a princess and rule a kingdom. Girls nowadays inherit "daddy's" empire with a flick of the eye. When I was young, I pretended lollipops were cigarettes for fun. Girls nowadays smoke like the were born with this capacity. When I was young, I would choose to play outside and run a whole park with my friends. Girls nowadays chat on Facebook, Twitter and other Social Media platforms and "check-in" to seem cool.And they hunt likes for their selfies. When I was young, girls and boys didn't want to kiss each other's cheek. Girls nowadays jump from a relationship to another. Whe I was young, I would get things when I deserved them. Girls nowadays get everything. I'm not trying to denigrate girls in this post or make somebody angry.NOT ALL THE GIRLS ARE THE SAME.I'm just noticing how generations...

                     So today's post is not going to be a sad post, but more like a brainstorming one. So I'm aproaching exam season and,of course, I wanted to get some extra tutoring to complement my knowledge.And so I went back to my old Romanian teacher, but I wasn't the only one.One of the ones who wanted tutoring was one of my ex-classmates.And I thought if we were no longer classmates, we could talk as equals, but turnes out it waSn't the case.He is,to this day sort of bullying me because I'm a hungry thinker(when my brain is in a state of intense activity, I need a snack.I guess it's a way of my brain of telling me to recharge or reward myself for the work).But he keeps nagging me for wanting snacks.I see nothing wrong with snacking when studying but I guess some people have such a well developped brain, theirs can function non stop.And also,I've noticed that he also bullies me for the person that I was, an introvert not eng...

I cannot express how awsome my friends are :3 Story time ;) So today I got the worst neck pain in the history of neck pains ,so bad that I couldn't look to my left or up.It was horrible :( And so my friends decided to go to a supermarket and buy some goodies.I wanted bananans.I got bananas.You have no ideea how much that meant to me :)) Also,after joking in the bus about how I would arrive at home with my neck,my friends decided to take me home.We walked but it was still better than walking by myself with my neck in that weird position.And after arriving home I literally cried of pain,so my friends made sure to cheer me up :3 Today made me realise how special little things can be.Food,friends and laughter can heal more than money or medecine. Please please plase appreciate your friends because true friends will never stab your back and will take care genuinely of you.And they deserve your time,attention and even money if needed.Money comes and goes but true friends stick wit...